I've been struggling to find these words for a while... struggling to, well maybe just "struggling" is a good way to word everything I want to say. You are two and by that I mean you are everything I was told and so much more than I could even imagine. You are strong, creative, beautiful, incredibly stubborn, fierce, opinionated, and wild to the core and I am struggling (because yes that is our current word) I am struggling to be a good mother. Read More
The truth though is I think no matter where you mother, motherhood is hard, and in a bus, a house, an apartment... whenever motherhood is universally a language we are all still trying to learn. Having only been a mother for two years I can't claim any level of expertise. I am not terribly patient, good at calming tantrums, or right now even remotely good at potty training. Living in a bus hasn't made these things any more or less real but it has taken the space we would normally have to live in and learn together and made it incredibly smaller and more personal. Read More
I feel like so far this pregnancy has gone by so much faster than my first. It might be that we have been so busy moving into the bus and just with all these major life changes but I also think I am just less stressed this time. With my first pregnancy I took a pregnancy test everyday for like a week and with this one I just took one and called it a day. I haven't felt the same sense of urgency to have everything perfect, haven't been shopping for baby clothes, and have really just been less focused on being pregnant that I was last time. Read More
Because sometimes you have to take a step back.
remember, let go.
Hold space for the beauty in routine,
the simplicity of these moments.
Flipping pancakes, baby giggles, boiling water.
Finding depth in the ordinary,
comfort in the moment,
because love.. breakfast with you is everything
and my heart will always return here,
to this space,
our mornings. Read More
There are so many varying opinions out there on growing families and how many kids to have and this is not that post. This is more a heart felt question of when, and why, and all the fears that come with having a child. What if we just got lucky with Jessamyn? What if it changes our family dynamic in a bad way? What if we can't even have a second one? Is our family complete? I mean the list goes on and on and swirls into just a lot of anxiety and tension in our marriage. Read More
Mamas please... remember that under all the dresses and headbands, leggings, and moccasins there is a tiny child trusting you to look out for their best interest but also yours as well. I've noticed a trend lately with a lot of brands where there is a "search" for a brand representative... but if you win you do not get a free product in exchange for your posts and photos. You get a percentage off and a contracted obligation to order at regular intervals. Further you get the privilege of emailing in your photos... photos of your child to this brand for their unlimited use ( which if that doesn't scare you, it should). Mama's I am here to tell you, you are worth more than that! Read More