We are only 10 days away from our due date and it feels like time to recap this trimester because fingers crossed there will be a sweet little baby here soon! I naively thought this trimester would be easy since coming into it I was feeling really good and had tons of energy BUT the closer we get to my due date the longer the days get, the less I am sleeping, and the more I am understanding people who told me the end really drags out... not to complain but I was totally wrong in my earlier hope that this trimester would just fly by! The good news is we are so close and I cannot wait to meet this little girl. Even Jessamyn tonight was talking to my belly and saying "Come on, Hold you" which was basically the sweetest ever!
My pregnancy symptoms have more or less topped out this trimester. My weight has been holding steady which I honestly have no explanation for as I feel like all I do all day is eat since I really can't stomach huge meals. My restless legs have also basically stayed the same and the only thing that has really changed is that I am not sleeping anymore. Not for lack of trying but the more pregnant I get the less I am able to actually get any sort of actual sleep.
My emotions have also ramped up a lot this trimester and I am really excited to give birth mostly so that Ben and I can have a normal slightly less emotional (on my end) relationship and I can stop crying every time I think about Jessamyn growing up. Which on that note seriously the emotions about not getting to spend all the time with her has been so real this trimester, the closer we get the more anxious I get about wanting to make sure she feels loved and not replaced and like the awesome big sister she is going to be. I know these feelings are all normal but it is honestly pretty hard to swing back and forth everyday through the whole spectrum of emotions.
My biggest struggle these last few days has primarily been staying grounded and focused in the present. I feel. so ready and yet also so anxious about giving birth and am having a really hard time staying focused and just alive in daily life vs. waiting and dreaming about meeting baby girl. This happened with Jessamyn too but gosh it is a struggle this time because Jessamyn really demands me to be present and it really isn't fair for her for me to spend all day everyday with my mind wandering and not really giving her my attention... so yeah thats something I am working on.
As for actually being ready for the baby I think we are all set! Ben put the last of the furniture together, I have about two outfits that I can actually still wear, and all the baby things are unpacked and ready. We just need her to decide to come! So my question for you is how was the end of your pregnancy? Or what did you do to stay grounded while waiting for baby to arrive?