I posted a photo on Instagram yesterday, I really liked it. There were big tall rocks that spoke to me of home and familiarity, snow, and a thick fog that made me think I could step out into it and somehow fly. It didn't do as well as I wanted and so I took it down.
I would be lying if I said that is the first time I have done it, and mostly it happens with nature shots which I guess makes sense people would rather see my daughter or a shot of my coffee than nature but for me those nature shots are everything. Those times when I get out in the woods and capture a tiny detail or larger scene that holds magic, wonder, and all these feelings of that present moment, those are the shots I treasure. This is not to say I don't treasure photos of my daughter I like those too... probably more, but for me this is art and beauty and captures a little piece of my heart I can't always explain.
So.. why do I take them down? Well they didn't do well, the likes didn't match my expectations and that burns a little. When I was thinking about that answer it really slapped me in the face because then why am I posting in the first place? Am I posting for the likes? If that is the case I will always, always, always be disappointed because no amount of likes will ever be good enough and my image quality will deteriorate because I will no longer be capturing beautiful moments but trying to bottle up popularity. I don't want that.. I don't want to post images just for the sake of instant gratification and likes, I want more.
SO my promise to myself is that I am going to stop worrying, stop constantly checking my phone after I post a photo, stop wondering if I used the right hashtags, stop comparing my photos to other photos and wondering what was wrong with mine, stop only posting "likable" photos. Because life consists of more than likes and a visual journey is not always the high points, it is sometimes ugly, simple, too basic, not colorful enough, sometimes life is messy... but life is real and if I can't share the real moments why bother?
I'm sharing this here today because to many influencers I know are equating their worth in how their photos do... I want you to know you are enough, your photos are enough, the number of likes under your photo does not determine the beauty of that moment. Don't be afraid to share the beauty around you just because you think someone might not like it, don't be afraid to be real. I have made this mistake too many times, and I am done, because there is too much life to be had to worry about a silly little number next to a photo.