Thanksgiving is coming which if I was honest is a day I generally just associate with parades, turkeys, and that slightly uncomfortable feeling of being over stuffed. This week I participated in a collaboration with several other lovely mamas on Instagram that really made me stop and think about thankfulness. What does it mean to be thankful? What does it look like to teach a two year old thankfulness? I don't have the answers but I have a small thought.
So We thought Ben had the holidays off this year and he does have Thanksgiving still but due to a schedule change lost Christmas and New Years. He was his normal self and totally indifferent about this but I was honestly a bit crushed and really disappointed. Jessamyn is probably to young to know or care but I feel like it is a big deal and wanted us all to be together on the holidays.
My response was not good, I was generally grumpy and upset and even though she doesn't understand I know Jessamyn can tell and I don't want her to assume that is a good response to hard (or even easy) life situations. When I think about thankfulness for us this year with the schedule change and just our constant bumpy life with building the bus... I think about tiny beautiful moments. I really want to show Jessamyn that we can be happy in any circumstances, I really want her to be a person who can find beauty no matter where she is or whats going on. I didn't model that this time, but I am working on it. Motherhood is a constant evolving state and I am actually thankful for that. So this year we won't be together but we will be thankful and I am not entirely sure that that is going to look like this holiday season but I am excited to find out and to look for all the beautiful moments together.
I would love to hear your thoughts on thankfulness OR if you are in the same boat of not being able to be together as a family during the holidays I would love to hear what you are doing as an alternative to celebrate? I haven't decided quite yet what we are going to do but it is going to be fun and hopefully memorable!