Oh baby girl you are turning two and I don't even have words.... When you turned one it was easy, I had a clear purpose and direction. We threw a giant party, cake, food, all your favorite people.... I planned it out down to the minute. Two though, two snuck up on me. It came with a lot of words, mile stones, and so very many skills I can't even begin to list. And really how do you capture that essence and turn it into a party? A celebration big enough to really express all you have become in the past two years of your existence? I think the answer if I am honest is that you cannot, and we did not... so Instead it was the aquarium and then wings and fries for lunch because you basically exist off of fruit, chicken nuggets, and fries.... obviously.
This wasn't your first time to an aquarium you went when we visited Seattle and I remember how your eyes lit up looking at all the different fish and watching the harbor seals. So naturally the aquarium was the best choice for your second birthday. You don't have many friends yet... I mean other than all the dogs in the neighborhood which for obvious reasons we could not invite so it was just a few family members a mommy and daddy.
We spent the day staring at fish, yelling "oh no" every time they would swim up to the glass. You were particularly fond of the little fish, not okay with the pirañas, and made it clear that sharks and the clear glass on the floor so we could see them under our feet were very much a big "OH NO."
You are turning into such a beautiful, amazing creature I can't even stand it. Every day so many new words, phrases even, and your facial expressions kill me. Sometimes I wonder if I am even capable of being your mother but again and again you show me the way.
On this day at the aquarium you had a particular fondness for your uncle who rightly so is obsessed with fishing and was able to tell you all the ins and outs of these new found friends. I don't think you were as impressed with them as you would have been with dogs but unfortunately there is no such place as a dog aquarium... but maybe next year.
I think what hurts my heart the most is I still remember laboring with you and how tiny you were... and now you are two... basically thirteen. I don't think the aquarium and a lunch of wings nearly did justice for how awesome you are at being two... though also how incredibly stubborn and prone to tantrums, but we tried and we were together and I think that is enough.
Ps. the way you yell for your "dada" and are constantly impressed nu everything he does basically melts me every time, I hope you always see hime that way.
- Love "Mama"