I posted on Instagram this week about how Jessamyn didn't really talk until recently. It had a surprising response from the mama community that made me realize so many of us worry about whether or not we are failing our children, and so many mamas truly would do anything to make sure their baby was meeting milestones and "normal." So many mama hearts are breaking as the voices around them tell them they are not enough, their children are not enough.
In some ways it is reassuring to know so many other mamas are worrying and so many tinies aren't speaking either. On the other side though it is sad that we even have to worry and makes me wonder if society isn't failing us a little, leading us to believe we aren't enough, our children aren't enough. There is this strange but rather loud voice I continually here as Jessamyn gets older urging me to push her further, make sure she is the smartest, the best, the brightest. I am not entirely sure where it is coming from but I have to say it kind of disturbs me and makes me wonder why?
Because the truth is mamas you are enough, we are enough. Our children whether they have complete sentences at two, or are still barely talking at all... they are enough. Every one is different, everyone progresses at their own pace. This is the message I continually whisper to myself in those moments where I question my ability to mother and that I hope Jessamyn will always know. I want her to know she is enough always, no matter how quickly she progresses. No matter where she falls in her class at school, I want her to know her very existence is beautiful and is enough.
So we will continue to read, to explore, to sometimes eat cookies for dinner, and sneak in extra cuddles. I am not going to push her to be something I think she needs to be. I am not going to mold the path she walks down. I am going to make sure she always knows I support her, I am going to give her as many tools and opportunities as I can. Ultimately though whether she is the head of her class or constantly in need of support.... I will be there and she will always know she is enough.
We as mamas need to know perfect is a lie... it is an idea that can never be reached and where you are right now... where I am in my dirty work out clothes, chasing a naked toddler around the house who just had the craziest poop explosion ever... that is enough. We can do this, and we can do it through love, and in community together. So instead of worrying about whether Jessamyn is up to par.... I am going to enjoy exactly where she is at.... making animal sounds, reading books upside down, and watching Elmo on repeat.
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